Peril

Stardate: December 1, 3999

Ralph,

He came.
And now I find myself forced to walk the unsettling bridge between love and peril.
I'd gone to a lecture on the Esoterica and High Mysteries of Heaven. it was a small, intimate affair. The kindly librarian had been kind enough to tell me - a wondrous thing to make such friends who can expose you to such riches - and he had some of his own associates who had come in to the station for a visit t hear the lecture. we all had a fine dinner afterward. but behind me I knew i felt a dark presence. he was there, sitting behind me, his gaze so penetrating I'd thought I'd been undressed. Then I looked back again and he wasn't there.

It made my heart soar to hear you think of me as The Lady with Child. I feel as if you have glimpsed into a possible future for us. Such things can sometimes be uncertain but you had a vision my love, a precious vision of our family, or what it could be, were we to have a little one.

I'd told the librarian of my fears of him following me, haunting my steps and he offered to put me up in his place for a few days. his friends even escorted me to my apartments to gather a few things and then I was ensconced in safety there fr a few days until I could feel his dark presence lessening.Once I felt that opaque oppressive presence when he could not get to me I went back to our place. But it was as if I could feel his oily presence had polluted our sacred and loving space.

There are times that I wonder if he is connected with the wicked Kristoff. I have noticed a pattern from long ago. these Dark Hands show up to create chaos and trouble whenever one is upon a major spiritual journey to the Light. their darkness is spreading like a blanket and they want to no one to find the way out of it. I continue to read the Book now as much for spiritual protection and comfort as well as in reverence for learning. As i read the passage: "Thy prayers are like sharp arrows in the dark hearts of thine enemies." I felt myself strengthened. But there is something else. And a need for more.

He really had been here. It wasn't my imagination. He left a letter here on a table.it stopped me cold. it said, in hard, violent words: In the end, you shall be mine." I would have rather destroyed it and never mention it. i was vile! But there it was. i feel tainted by his desires and dark plans, whatever they may be. I feel a pull towards him that I never asked for and am fighting mightily. I love you Ralph, with all my heart. I would die before I gave ground to him. His influence is imperceptible to others. They do not see it, yet. But his darkness is spreading. I fear that his pull is strong. So strong that I may have to destroy myself in order to escape his shadow, and therefore destroying the passion and love between us and any shared visions of our future. Please hurry.

Dearest,
Magdalene